Today has been hard so far. It is strange how certain things just set you off. I was taking care of breaking apart the family plan that used to comprise me, Idan, Katie and my mother.

Part of this was to disconnect Idan’s old phone. I had always imagined this moment so differently. I had imagined one of two things; he would decide to move back to Israel and I would need to turn it off or I would be moving with him and all the phones would need to be terminated.

I never imagined, sitting in my office, feeling like crap, triggered like this.

I am thinking back to how badly I missed him when he would be in Israel and how hard it was to be apart from him. This pain I feel right now is so much more intense, probably because I have to remind myself that he isn’t flying into Newark next week. More likely, we will not speak for a while to come.

The funny thing is that I don’t feel like I wasted 3.5 years on this, like I did some of my other relationships. I had a wonderful time with Idan; we did some cool things, were there for each other, and only in the end did it get bad. Maybe it was so good, when it was, that is why it hurts as bad as it does.

Yes! Please do. Why? Because only if we let them make this country the worst place to live in the world will their corrupt idiotic ideology be exposed for what it truly is.

• It simple isn’t enough that people are doubting the war. Why should they? Is isn’t like we were lied to.
• It isn’t enough the poster boy for rah-rah America was killed by his own butt-buddies marines.
• People are up in arms about a sniper video on CNN, well, war sucks, and it sucks to have your Wal*Mart trip interrupted by war. Oh wait, we are at war, did you forget?
• You get what you asked for. You want a nation full of hate? You voted away your jobs? You voted for war? Good, thank you, now cry at your sons’ graves and vote again. Vote! Vote! Until all your kids are dead.
• Even your own people are wondering: “Somehow our elected leaders were subverting international law and humanity by setting up secret prisons around the world, secretly kidnapping people, secretly holding them indefinitely, secretly not charging them with anything, secretly torturing them.” Hmm. It goes on and on.
• Listen to Lou Dobbs, he makes some good points.

I don’t need to go much more into this. It is real. And I love it! I love saying “I told you so!” Please, please, please keep the status quo, because it will be cool to see just how bad this can get. I want every one of you to have low paying jobs, no healthcare, dead children, mountains of debt, no education, and then maybe only then, will you realize you sold your soul, you sold your country to warmongers who helped bring Asian sweatshop living standards to the heartland.

The BBC has an article on global water stress. Be certain to check out the pdf attached to the article.

The map shows two types of water scarcity. Economic scarcity occurs due to a lack of investment and is characterised by poor infrastructure and unequal distribution of water.

Physical scarcity occurs when the water resources cannot meet the demands of the population. Arid regions are most associated with physical water scarcity. But the IWMI says there is an alarming trend in artificially-created scarcity - even in areas where water is apparently abundant.

I have long maintained (since the 9th grade) that water would be an issue at the heart of larger global conflicts. Oil, schmoil, water is the real serious valuable fluid. I forget where I read that the UN once figured out that the give clean drinking water to the world would be 5 billion $ and we spend 20 billion $ on bottled water. I am as guilty as the next guy with my bad bottled water habits. But in the ideas of transformative ethics and living what you believe, I am trying to not buy bottled water. I will do more research and post some more articles on the issue.