One of the most fun parts of all this Idan Bitton crap is how much of a liar he became. Here is the text of one of his last messages to me:

Well u might u are smart and on to something but craig is that black girl i met and that last one was sent just cause i knew you were looking on the phone, well here u created the drama u wanted, cause nothing is going on…

Keep in mind this is Craig Baldwin, and this is the “black girl” he showed me on his camera to support his lie.

Funny thing is, last I saw the little ‘confused’ liar he was still using my borrowed phone.

So here I am at two weeks out from the mess. I am sitting at a friends house in Manhattan after a long week at work and looking through photos. I was told my facebook photos were scary and out of date. So out cones the laptop where I have some 9000 photos of my life ranging back to the mid 90’s. It started to become really hard as we looked through photos of Idan and me over the last 4 years.

What changed? Where did it go wrong? Who was he then vs. who is he now? What the fuck happened? What happened between this kiss (at left) and this distance and unhappiness on his face in the other photo?

And Jesus it sucks about Bono.

It sucks that he is trying to put this all behind him while I am trying to figure out where my life went.

When I think about how deeply I love him I start to get angry.

But it isn’t like I didn’t know this would happen, I met him when he was 21 and I was 31. I knew he had a lot of growing and changing to do. Even at my age I know that we are still evolving, let alone 21.

I recall my 20’s. Boy do I!

I had assumed we had a bond that would allow up to weather any storm. The things he said to me over the last 4 here were reason enough. I have cards, notes, emails, and memories that attest.

So while he might be working to put his past behind himself. I, again, am missing a guy who I love, who I would forgive anything.

If only I were asked.

I think this sums is all up, cut from Facebook this fine Sunday morning. Now I know there are adults with some high degree of culture here in Hoboken, but they must not be on Facebook!! Hey don’t get me wrong, I like all of these moves (well not The Notebook) but to assert them as my favorite, hmmmm….

Top Movies in the Hoboken / Jersey City, NJ network.

1. Scarface
2. Old School
3. Fight Club
4. The Notebook
5. Wedding Crashers