Jul
20
2008
Visual Space is a Reminder of Emotional Space
Posted by Nathan in Ramblings, tags: Home, Idan Bitton - עידן ביטון, Moving OnI am sure you are not shocked at this statement!
It has been about 2 weeks and Bono is missing. I hope he either has a nice new owner or his demise was humane. It is just really sad to sustain such hit to lose a beloved pet.
I have all this space suddenly! My closet is empty, my dresser is empty, my house is really empty. I have been avoiding putting things into the empty space. No real reason, I just don’t want to look at it right now.
But I placed a sweater into the dresser and just started to cry. In like 5 seconds. Amazing.
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(Warning: I think it might be a little too early for you to hear this, so you might wanna keep this for future reference for when you are ready.)
Let’s get a few things gay ’cause I think you need to put things in perspective, OK? OK.
So we in cyberland might not know much, but this is what we DO know:
a) If we calculate it from a gains/loss thing: all he did was lose. He shan’t find any other person who would have cared for him and loved him unconditionally as you loved him. I don’t care how many faults you have or what issues you have, that isn’t even the point (and you know it). No one on this Earth is completely perfect, so I kind of feel sorry for the chap. He won’t know love the way you showed him love, or even come nearly as close– probably ever again.
2) You, on the other hand, probably have a much different destiny. You are a generous person when it comes to relationships and love. You were with someone who didn’t reciprocate your unconditional love-thus you were with someone with whom you shouldn’t have been, you know? You deserve someone who reciprocates your love and generosity, someone who will help you reach your full potential in a loving, committed relationship. Ochay? Ochay.
and iii) Dude, just from lookin’ at the pictures it’s obvious that you could do sooo much better than him. Beauty should match beauty (as my friends remind me), and it is so obvious that you are that much better looking than he is. Meh, it simply makes us feel that more sorry-er for him.
ד) And please elucidate to us what is up with the going after the blond??? The “blond-haired, blue-eyed/classic Aryan” look is… That’s just bizarre. It’s like preferring McDonald’s to a gourmet banquet. *shakes head in incredulity* It makes no sense to us why people think that is ever remotely attractive.
Like I said, you might not want to hear this now, but It’s unanimous: you are better off while he can only go downhill from here.
Now just give yourself time for your heart to heal.
Our Prophet PBUH has a saying: “Be optimistic and it shall happen,” meaning that if you look at the brighter side of things then that is what you will find. You will heal and you will find a new love.
ok I thanks you for all your kind words, but Idan was not blond
he is a dark Moroccan Israeli! I agree, blonds are boring 
I accidentally found this while researching Spinoza. I saw the pictures and I thought to myself, “This is someone who has lived”. Little sad when I saw that you’re gay =( but I enjoy your words nonetheless. I’ve been in this position, only mine was slightly more obvious because I had a new place and a million things to fill it but I chose to pay to keep it in storage. I felt that there was no room in my world for the unnecessary, like it would not only crowd my apartment but my mind also and there was no room for anything in there. This was after a painful break-up and by painful I don’t mean that we were in love. I mean that I stood idle for 5 years with this man because he loved me and he was the guarantee that my family and I would be taken care of. I was in agony the entire time I was with him. He knew how I felt and didn’t care, so did my family. Then I realized my life wasn’t my own and I would rather die living my life than live someone else’s. This still took a healing time. Today, I can honestly say I have never been half as happy as I am right now.